I was so tired when he came to fetch but when I looked at him all smiles, I felt this funny feeling to hug and kiss him and talk about my day at work with all those funny customers. Hahah weird.

And I told him I haven't eaten but I was just too tired to have my dinner outside. So we went to top up his petrol and bought him some chips and a pack of ciggys and then he sent me home. I told him I couldn't buy food as I had to pay for his petrol and stuffs so therefore I had decided to scavenge for food at my grams' kitchen. About half and hour later, after I was done with my intsant noodles, my Hp rang.

"Can you open the door?"

And I was like "Huh??"

By then my grandfather had opened the door and said Haikal was standing at the doorstep. I was like a roller coaster of emotions, dunno how to react! I wanted to laugh, cry and get angry at the same time!

There he stood, with my fav meal amongst all; Double Cheeseburger. Boy was I truly touched. I was speechless, I looked at him giving me a look that says "What the fuck you wasted my time".. Because I had already eaten!! Baby I am so so sorry. You really should have called the house phone sweetheart..

Nevertheless, I sat and and munched on the curly wurly fries. Left my double cheese for tmr's breakfast. And I tried calling him all at the same time but to no avail, he wouldn't answer. Guess he was mad and probably still is.

Baby I am so sorry.

But what you did really moved me. I am surprised till now. Thank you, for being such a beautiful soul.

Once again I am sorry if my reaction hurt you, but know that I am very, very thankful.

I love you Haikal. Please talk to me soon ok love?

WORK TILL I DROP DEAD.

I miss the times I used to go out with him for lunch or movies.. I just miss those days we used to go out alone. Just the two of us.. Sigh..

Oh so what's new?

We're fighting AGAIN.

I have to put an end to this.

No I can't do this anymore.

I can't.

I just can't.

Oh boy.

I can't.

Trust.

First, Boy went missing.

Now Bunny died of old age.

Who's next?

One after another..

Reason because?

I am no longer staying in the house.

Boy went off; I concluded he felt his real owner is amiss, therefore went off. Breaks my heart to even type this. Sighs..

Now Bunny, after 8 years. Leaves his family. Just like me.

I am just hoping the other 3 cats will stay. Because I brought home two of them. One of which I milked while she was still a week or two old. Every night I woke up to her cries, milked her and pat her back to sleep. I cleaned her mess, I shushed her when she made too much noise. I cradled her like a fragile glass, every night before I went to bed. Please oh please do not leave. You're still my baby girl, Ehmon.

And the other, I named him Little One because when I brought him in he was the smallest and littlest one. The playful one. He was stealing a Nasi Lemak's fish by the staircase nearby the market. When I approached, he kept on munching. I patted him and when he looked up, he had the most innocent little bluish green eyes. I was so hooked I ditched tuition. Lol. You too Little One, stay home and do not stray.

And not forgetting Tommy, your bite marks are still on me. So you'll always be remembered.

I miss you guys, terribly but looking at the circumstances, there is no way I am coming home. Until a miracle happens.

Be save you guys. :'(

Shit I am crying already. Oh shit. :((

I'm walking away..
From the troubles in my life..
I'm walking away..

Sighs.

I may not be the best girlfriend.
I may not be the best friend.
I may not be the best daughter.
I may not be the best sister.
I may not be the best colleague.
I may not be the best relative.
I may not be the best girl.
I may not be the best worker.
I may not be the best listener.
I may not be the best editor.
I may not be the best whatsoever.
I may not be the best whatever ever.

But I am definitely the best at being secretive.
Hey I'm a true Scorpio.
Most things I keep to myself.

So don't assume you know what's going on in this head of mine.

Don't assume you can judge, don't assume you can manipulate. And don't assume you can tell.

Because I might show my emotions on the surface but what's beneath is the depth that no one has ever touched before.

I am not strong, I have a soft heart.

Hear me whisper in my dreams.

When I am sure you are the right companion to my world.