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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

When you're with me, you act normal but when you're gone, it's like I'm invisible. I still can't seem to see where I went wrong.. I don't know how much more I can take from you. 

Oh no I don't wanna hear it baby, I'm through. I know I'll still be missing you but it's not worth the pain that I've gained from you. What else is there to do? I ain't no heartless creature. I can't leave when we still need each other. But lately I've been feeling really unappreciated. You're taking my love for granted babe. 

But then again Azian, what's new?

Oh yes I do understand you're a student now. I've been there for 13 years of my life since I entered Primary School. And yeah I also understand the meaning of projects, both mini and major. The distractions, hell yes. The misunderstandings I had gotten from you, been there. The ridiculous conclusions, God tell me about it. But all in all, I still had the time for you. Even when I was a full time student AND a part time manicurist. I had to juggle so many things at one time, yet I still had the time for you. 

Oh so ITE and SIM different? Does that mean even if we don't do anything, skip classes and stuffs we'd be able to graduate? Fuck no. Just that SIM is of higher standard which mean more difficulties. MOST look down on ITE students. Isn't that so? No? But is that what you're trying to say? You taking me for a fool babe? You think I have no idea what you're going through sweetheart? 

You wanna take my position? We can switch for a month. You pay bills, car&bike loans, food & beverages, outings and so on and so forth while I sit back in the lecture room, scribbling furiously on my little notepad. And then take a break and oogle and prettyfaces. Ahhhh.. I'll take school schmool ten times baby. I swear I will.





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Monday, July 13, 2009

I am proud & bersyukur to be a Muslimah. And I can't fucking stand imbeciles who are not already stupid but crude as well towards other religions. God may these people burn in hell.

Oh oh btw. Watching Paris say her last words was indeed painful. I actually had tears in my eyes. RIP MJ, I'm not your biggest fan but rest assured I used to shake my bonbons while listening to Black or White. And that was when I was just learning what to do with a broomstick. And yeap, watched that Thriller of yours, bought a couple of cds for leisure and brother even mimicked your glove-styles. 

Time flies huh people?

And believe me or not, I am missing school even more than I  had expected. And I really wish I had enough money to pay for the courses that I want. Ya Allah, please help me through thick and thin because with You, I seek light and not darkness, I seek ways instead of running away. And please don't take my loved ones so soon.

I am hoping that I could get into school by next year. I just hope everything goes well, all problems solved smartly and gaining the courage to adapt to a new environment. I am praying for the best for myself, I don't want to mourn over anybody I love (yet) and I certainly hope I am given the opportunity to go back to school.

And on top of all that, I pray very hard for HaikaL's success. His success is the 2nd most important to me. I don't think he'll be reading my blog as much as he used to because he's been sooooo damn busy lately. Poor kid, he's probably to lose his mind soon.. I am not about to get in the way of his career path, even if we have been spending lesser time with each other.. I won't be selfish, I'll still pray for his safety on the road, his everyday health and his smoothness in his studies. I pray for his determination and concentration, his difficulties to absorb more than he could.. And I pray for his family, who's been stern about studies from Day 1 for a better future. I hope all goes well, insyallah. 

God. I can no doubt do this every single day of my life until my heart fucking bleeds due to its emptiness. And today, it's 6 days already. Late.

Howell, this is life. Nobody said it is fair. Whoever said it was probably a fucking bluffer. A fucking low life lunkhead. A fucking NO life asshole. A fucking degrading sonuvabitch. And definitely a setan gondol idiot. 





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Friday, July 10, 2009

Eyelid Twitching Superstitions and Myths
Millions of people suffer from eye twitching – in some it may be intermittent, brought on by a sudden increase of stress or sleeplessness. In others, it’s more pronounced and can interfere with day to day life. Regardless of which category a person falls into, there’s a goldmine of superstitions that revolve around eye twitching. In fact eye twitching ranks up there with itchy palms and hiccups as the most superstition prone condition! Each culture seems to have its own take on the deeper significance of eye twitching.
In China for instance, where superstitions and myths frequently cross over into modern living, the chief superstition seems to be that a twitch in the right eye signifies good luck, maybe a major windfall. A twitch in the left eye? Not so good. It’s a bad omen; a sign of ill luck headed your way! 
The entire situation seems to turn around in the case of females; for them, a twitching left eye signifies good luck while a twitching right one is a strict no no! - I hope this is true! Even among the Chinese, there seem to be as many superstitions regarding eye twitching as the sufferers themselves.

There is even a superstition based on an anatomical break down of the eye. A twitch in the lower left eyelid means you can expect to cry soon while a corresponding one in the right eyelid means good fortune is headed your way. There’s yet another one that claims a twitching eyelid means someone is gossiping about you. We think this is a pretty cool one - always good to know the exact moment when your enemies are bad mouthing you. In any case, all these mental calisthenics figuring out whether an eye twitch means you’re going to win the lottery or have the sky fall on your head, will probably give you enough stress to trigger off a whole new series of twitches!

Next to the Chinese, the Indians are the Olympic champions when it comes to superstitions. The commonly believed one here is just the opposite of the Chinese version. Here a twitching left eye is definitely a good omen, while a twitching right one is considered inauspicious. The Nigerians go with the Chinese version. Left eye – bad. Right eye – Good. Another superstition is a little more frightening than the above. It’s not clear where this one comes from, but according to it a twitching left eye means there’s soon going to be a death in the family. A twitching right one on the other hand means an impending birth. To the Hawaiians, an eye twitch can either mean the arrival of a stranger, or that you’re soon going to mourn for someone.

In Cameroon and some other parts of Africa, a twitching lower eyelid means you will soon shed tears. As far as superstitions go, this one is quite scientific. Tears normally flow from the corner of the lower eyelid. Still on Africa, when the upper eyelid twitches, it’s a sure sign you’re going to meet someone you didn’t expect to see. This one’s also connected to anatomical science, it seems. Surprise and amazement are normally expressed in humans by the raising of the upper eyelids.

- So now, which is which? My left eyelid has been twitching eversince God knows when. Prolly last week? I fear for the worst. It doesn't matter if I'm about to find out things I'm NOT supposed to. Been there, done that. What's worst was finding out the truth ON MY OWN. Now that sucked big time. And even if it's a bad omen this time round, and IF I could choose, I'd rather take another round of betrayal. Or even choose being in a situation where I have to make a painful choice. But absolutely not death in the family. That one is not what I had braced myself for.

Lately both eyes have been twitching. The eyelids especially. But the left one has been twitching longer. Usually when my right eye twiches, be it the eyelid or the lower lid, I'd end up bawling my heart out. It usually ends with a stupid and frustrating arguement with HaikaL. Once I remembered we fought so bad that I practically threw my phone against the wall while HaikaL was still talking. I was so fucking mad and that was the first time in our 3 years I threw the phone. I got so damn angry that I cried so hard I woke up the next morning with swollen eyes. It was really insane. Lucky for me, my phone was still intact. I had hoped the LCD would crack or the phone would break open but no, it didn't and all the more I was furious I kept crying and crying. God, even Manje was shocked at the noise. He jumped straight up from his 'terkangkang' sleep and searched for the cause of the noise. Haha.

Well anyway, it better be a good omen cause frankly, I don't want any fights between HaikaL and me now that he's started school and I don't want him to lose focus. And deaths are a definite no-no too. I just hope it's a sign to be expecting a long-lost somebody or seeing something good. Fasting month is less than a month and not the time to mourn for someone.

Speaking of which, I have so many things on my To-Do list. Things to be done before & during fasting month..

- First and foremost; colour & rebond on separate weeks. I SO NEED THAT!!
- Then the estimated value of about $150-$200 of green packets for my sister, cousins, grams, kids.
- Trip down to super hot hot hot Geylang with ever-so-whiny HaikaL to search for a not-too-expensive matching pair of baju raye. Thought of pink or baby blue. White seems pretty too. Dunno la.
- Do some light shopping for accessories at Bugis. Replenish my fake lashes, new Za compact...
- Tend to HaikaL's wants at reasonable pleas. Got to have a STRICT budget for that boy.
- Gotta think and decide on a colour for my room. Ideas?
- Buy a few pails of the confirmed colour at cheap prices. Where's the cheapest ah??
- Visit IKEA for ideas.
- Write down my budget.
- Decide on the things that I would need to re-vamp my room.
- Candles, lamps, pillows, shelves, storage boxes, potpourris, decors like shiny & sparkling & pretty things, etc.
- Drive down to IKEA with Asyraf or HaikaL or both, see la how.
- Get the stuffs strictly according to my budget.
- Get both of us tonnes of that IKEA hotdog bread. Yum yum..
- And lets see.. ahh.. decide on my nails. Haha.
- Oh yes! Killer heels to go with a chic purse! Oh boy!

Now I'm definitely excited. Have to start calculating already! $$$$$$$
Chey to-do list mcm earn more than $2k. LOL. Azian.... Azian.. Nevermind.. When there's a will, there's a way. Have to work freaking hard for more commission on July then!

By the way, do you know that my mom went for a facial session recently? Not only did she rebond (yes rebond!) her hair at only $58 but she went for facial as well! Wahhh tanak kalah. And guess what? She signed up a package with that facial place ok! Worth $300+, can you believe it?! I can't!! But she offered me sessions off her package though. Hahah. Don't know whats becoming of her nowadays. Last night I did French manicure for her. Her nails are like super loooooooong and pointed and the French tip was super nice because of her length. Looked like Acrylic. I wish I could grow my nails that long.. But at a certain length they'll just start bending and chip! It's so damn frustrating.

Oh and I really dislike the colour of my first day of raya outfit. It's like a medium orangey-beige colour. Ugh. Why the heck did my mother choose that ugly colour I have no freaking idea.

Congratulations to HaikaL on obtaining his 3GS iPhone tonight. While I'm typing this, he's still in town for that stupid phone of a deal. Ya, you can say he's one of those kiasu idiots who can't hear/see good deals. All in all, I just hope to God everything goes well with the phone, a safe ride back home and a good night's rest due to all the hours of queueing up.

And before I know it, I've had my car for nearly a year already. Gosh how time flies. Please next Oct-Nov, come faster! That's when somebody finishes his 15months of school! Insyallah without any mishaps or delays, okay! And I'm (insyallah) going back to school next July if all goes well. Especially when I intend to maintain the car by myself as well as working part time and being a full time student. Pray for me ya! :)

I don't want people to think I'm living off my future husband. I am able to fend for myself regardless of my being.

On this note, I'd like to say a big big humongous HELLO EMIRATES STEWARDESS to Nurhafizah over at DUBAI! I miss you babe. Come to my birthday party if can ya.. Haven't really decided on anything yet, but there's sure to be a celebration for my 21st year. I'll post an invitation to you. That means I need your address! Drop me a message in Friendster or in here k dear!

Oh btw, I tweet! http://twitter.com/azianxhtml. Follow me! Cause I'm following a helluva lot of lime-lighters! Best kan best kan aku jakun giler!! Sampai kene maki ngn Haikal! Haha.





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Thursday, July 9, 2009

I don't mean a thing.






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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Happy bird-daay to HaikaL.
Poor baby down with a bad cough.
Nah uh, don't wanna hear you in cahoots with the swine ya..
Haha enjoy your 23rd sweetheart.

And study hard k. 15 months is not a long time. :)





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Thursday, July 2, 2009

What?





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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Oh boy.

I can hardly wait for my 21st. I want my Primary & Secondary school friends to turn up. My ITE friends especially. My colleagues.

Dress codes, food, drinks, colours, music, laughters.

I want my 21st to be a blast. Asyraf, I've appointed you to be my maid-of-honor organizer. Will call you up soon.

Club? Chalet? Pit? I have no freaking idea yet. But I'm seeing cries of joy & laughters already. And plenty of colours brightening up my day.





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